Well, I woke up in a foul mood but at least weighed in at a kilo lighter than a few days ago. I'm not sure which set of scales I should use for this forum, the ones I use at Weight Watchers, or my home ones. For the moment I'll use the home scales as I am irregularly attending meetings at the moment.
Went to the gym this morning and foul-mood subsided but now just feel bone-achingly tired again. That's the Post-Viral Syndrome side-effects for you.
Had to cancel the PT today as I have been double-booked to take the young one to a school appointment and I couldn't reschedule. <rant deleted in the interests of preserving marriage> Grrr. See, I told you I was grumpy this morning.
When I find where the bear hid the tape-measure I will take some measurements and start recording my progress in that regard so that when the muscle growth begins it won't create a false picture of my training progress.
Okay, time to hit the showers. More later.
Bikini-Gal
Monday, 30 April 2007
Saturday, 28 April 2007
Some Interesting Statistics
28.1 - Average BMI of Australian women (this is classed as "overweight) - I am 27.9
74 kg - Average weight of Australian women (not telling, but I am close to this)
1.63m - Average height of Australian women (I am 1.7m)
Size 12 - Average size in jeans of Australian women (size 14-16)
14C - Average bra size, however (16DD)
41% of Australian women wear a D Cup or above (me!)
87.9 cm - average waist measurement of Australian women (86cm)
110cm - average hip measurement of Australian women (101cm)
70% of Australians think they are fat (I'm in the 70%)
and the worst one
95% of women who went on weight-loss diets regained everything they lost, plus more, within 2 years (source - The Medical Journal of Australian MJA 2003; 179 (11-12): 586
What does this all mean? I'm not sure.
I don't know if I feel better or worse that I'm taller than than the average Australian woman and that my waist and hips are smaller than the national average (how come I wear a size 14-16 jean then ?? Maybe size 14-16 women don't buy as many pairs of jeans as size 12 and below women. Of course, I have over 15 pairs of jeans now so hopefully that will rebalance the matter in the next round of surveys)
What about the fact that 95% of dieting women regain their lost weight - Do I feel as though I am running an unwinnable race? Some days I do. But I have to try. I don't think that, even knowing those odds, I should give up. I mean 5% succeed. Is that crazy self-talk that I'm indulging in?
It might interest you to know that 90% of heroin addicts go back at least once to heroin. So it's actually harder to lose weight and keep it off than giving up heroin (I know, that's mis-using statistics horribly, but it's true for me some days).
I don't know anyone who's lost weight and kept it off permanently. No-one. I did have a friend once who lost an enormous amount of weight once and kept it off for about 5 years, but then a tragedy hit, and the weight (and much more) came back.
I do have a friend who lost an enormous amount of weight but fluctuates between 6-8 kilos so I don't know if she classes as part of the 95% or part of the 5%, but I'm sure if I asked her she would say that her weight loss battle continues still.
Why do we think fat people are lazy and stupid (I say "we" in the greater sense of the community, not me)? It's clearly stupid behaviour to indulge in starvation, mind-control and torture (known as "dieting" to the clinically insane). Maybe "overweight" people have realised that it's a pointless exercise that eventually costs you more health wise than being overweight does.
Recently I discovered that my PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) was most probably self-induced from my years of constant yo-yo dieting. New medical research has discovered that the fluctuating hormones brought about by starvation and dieting (I've done both) led to a much higher-incidence of PCOS in those woman. I wish I'd known that when I was 10. Of course, it probably wouldn't have stopped me because I wanted the "fatty fatty boomsticks" comments to cease more than I cared about my future fertility.
Anyway, I do believe, on some level, that I'm extremely stupid at attempting this. But I know that I have been so brainwashed by the media and my father over the years that I am never truly going to accept that I am beautiful at any size other than a size 10.
I admire women who can say "This is me, get fucked if you don't love it, because I do." That wasn't the message I received at home. Both my father and my grandmother (his mother) made it clear from early on that they thought I was too fat and that strenuous dieting would be rewarded by extra love and attention from both of them. Obviously they both had ISS-EWS!
I wonder what I could have achieved if I had diverted my energies into causes other than my weight loss... I'd probably be bullying people with statistics about productivity or something ;-)
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74 kg - Average weight of Australian women (not telling, but I am close to this)
1.63m - Average height of Australian women (I am 1.7m)
Size 12 - Average size in jeans of Australian women (size 14-16)
14C - Average bra size, however (16DD)
41% of Australian women wear a D Cup or above (me!)
87.9 cm - average waist measurement of Australian women (86cm)
110cm - average hip measurement of Australian women (101cm)
70% of Australians think they are fat (I'm in the 70%)
and the worst one
95% of women who went on weight-loss diets regained everything they lost, plus more, within 2 years (source - The Medical Journal of Australian MJA 2003; 179 (11-12): 586
What does this all mean? I'm not sure.
I don't know if I feel better or worse that I'm taller than than the average Australian woman and that my waist and hips are smaller than the national average (how come I wear a size 14-16 jean then ?? Maybe size 14-16 women don't buy as many pairs of jeans as size 12 and below women. Of course, I have over 15 pairs of jeans now so hopefully that will rebalance the matter in the next round of surveys)
What about the fact that 95% of dieting women regain their lost weight - Do I feel as though I am running an unwinnable race? Some days I do. But I have to try. I don't think that, even knowing those odds, I should give up. I mean 5% succeed. Is that crazy self-talk that I'm indulging in?
It might interest you to know that 90% of heroin addicts go back at least once to heroin. So it's actually harder to lose weight and keep it off than giving up heroin (I know, that's mis-using statistics horribly, but it's true for me some days).
I don't know anyone who's lost weight and kept it off permanently. No-one. I did have a friend once who lost an enormous amount of weight once and kept it off for about 5 years, but then a tragedy hit, and the weight (and much more) came back.
I do have a friend who lost an enormous amount of weight but fluctuates between 6-8 kilos so I don't know if she classes as part of the 95% or part of the 5%, but I'm sure if I asked her she would say that her weight loss battle continues still.
Why do we think fat people are lazy and stupid (I say "we" in the greater sense of the community, not me)? It's clearly stupid behaviour to indulge in starvation, mind-control and torture (known as "dieting" to the clinically insane). Maybe "overweight" people have realised that it's a pointless exercise that eventually costs you more health wise than being overweight does.
Recently I discovered that my PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) was most probably self-induced from my years of constant yo-yo dieting. New medical research has discovered that the fluctuating hormones brought about by starvation and dieting (I've done both) led to a much higher-incidence of PCOS in those woman. I wish I'd known that when I was 10. Of course, it probably wouldn't have stopped me because I wanted the "fatty fatty boomsticks" comments to cease more than I cared about my future fertility.
Anyway, I do believe, on some level, that I'm extremely stupid at attempting this. But I know that I have been so brainwashed by the media and my father over the years that I am never truly going to accept that I am beautiful at any size other than a size 10.
I admire women who can say "This is me, get fucked if you don't love it, because I do." That wasn't the message I received at home. Both my father and my grandmother (his mother) made it clear from early on that they thought I was too fat and that strenuous dieting would be rewarded by extra love and attention from both of them. Obviously they both had ISS-EWS!
I wonder what I could have achieved if I had diverted my energies into causes other than my weight loss... I'd probably be bullying people with statistics about productivity or something ;-)
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Friday, 27 April 2007
Introduction to "Bikini by Xmas"
WELCOME
Welcome to "Bikini by Xmas" the blogg site I have set up to track my progress towards my goal of wearing a Bikini by Xmas (as if the title didn't give it away).
In the previous year (2006) I lost 23 kilos but have been yo-yo-ing since about September last year to the point that at once stage, fairly recently, I realised that I had gained back 7 kilograms. Needless to say I panicked and decided to revisit my old weight loss tools and refocus on what was important to me, namely never, EVER, gaining back those lost kilos.
So recently I have been hitting the gym, tracking all my food intake and making a concerted effort to "be good" and I have shifted 5 of those kilos (some days it's 6 but I do fluctuate a lot).
It hasn't been easy, in fact, some days it feels like the hardest thing I've ever done (sorry Qld Anti-Smoking Group, losing weight and keeping it off is _harder_ than quitting smoking!).
I'm not naturally interested in fruit, vegies, or exercise, the 3 vital components to maintaining or losing weight, and I've certainly never been interested in "portion control", but I've had to face some hard facts on this journey and here they are
* Some people may be able to eat what they like and never get fat, I am not one of those people
* It will always ALWAYS be a struggle, and I will have to struggle more than most
* I will always have to exercise
* I will always have to watch what I eat and how much I eat
* I can drink alcohol if I want, I can also watch the kilos hop on for a free ride if I do so - I have to accept this
* None of the above is fair, but where is it written down that life is supposed to be fair?
* I will never have a healthy relationship with chocolate fudge, it's best that I never let it into the house
* Diet shakes will never work - they just delay the inevitable, learning to manage real food responsibly
* I am the ONLY person who can do this for me, and I am really the ONLY person who will do this for me
* People who think I am weak or unattractive because of my weight are shit-heads and shallow. I am better off without their poisonous thoughts and behaviour in my life.
So there you have it.
Every week at least, possibly more often if I am home or have exciting news to share, I will update this page with my progress. Please feel free to post questions or comments, we all know that I'm opinionated and hot-headed but I actually do listen and think about your thoughts more than you might believe.
All I ask is that you don't use my surname or yours in the postings. Just to keep things secure and safe.
Regards
Kate, Bikini-Gal
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